Hello, Goodbye

I'm 34 weeks in with these beautiful babies and it's time to start saying my goodbyes to all of the ailments and inconveniences of pregnancy. I would like to start with the pain. Goodbye to joint pain caused by swelling, goodbye to the pelvic pain that makes me want to cry every time I move. Goodbye to the excruciating pain that takes over my entire body anytime I lay down and try to sleep. Goodbye to the contractions that occur at random and the feeling that my uterus is going to fall right out the bottom of my stomach if I stand up too long. Goodbye to heartburn, headaches, back pain and aching feet.

Next I would like to bid farewell to the inconveniences of not being able to bend over, squat down, clean my house, carry ANYTHING, climb the stairs at an appropriate pace, DRIVE, stand up for more than 15 minutes at a time, or sit down for more than 30 minutes without pain and swelling. I long for the day when my average amount of visits to the restroom in a 24 hour period does not exceed 15, when I don't have to hydrate like my life depended on it, and I can eat like a normal person again and not feel like one wrong choice will kill my babies. It will be amazing when I'm no longer noticed on the street for my absurdly large stomach and comical waddle but for my sweet, cutie babies. I hope to never enter another maternity store for the rest of my life, and can't wait to button my pants when I put them on. Seeing my feet again while standing up will be great and sitting in a ladylike position instead of like I'm in hospital stirrups all day will be very comforting. Also, full range of motion in all extremities will be quite a treat.

On the other hand I would like to say hello to my water breaking, the crazy car ride to the hospital, the Operating Room, followed by a C-section, and finally the sweet sounding cries of my two little bundles. I would like to say hello to hard recovery from surgery but the satisfaction of seeing their faces every day. Hello to the pain of breast feeding/pumping and to the benefits to my body and theirs. Hello, to exercising, sleeping in the same bed as my husband, sleeping for more than one hour at a time (even though it may only be three to four at a time if I'm lucky), my family coming to see the new additions, the holidays...

I'm starting to become more of an impatient person and I experienced a bit of depression today because I feel like they should be done in there. God knows when they're ready and I know He's gonna bring them in His time. But I'm ready now, I'm done...far from over it. I had to blog tonight to blow off some steam before attempting to fall asleep again. It's never going to end...is it? (That's how I feel.)