Once the babies come, I know my life will move at a pace of a mile a minute. But, for now, it’s just my mind that is racing. I wish I could say that I am reflecting or getting a lot of productive thinking done, but it’s really just a mish-mash of thoughts floating around in no particular order with little or no correlation to one another. Just a jumbled mess.
So, here we are (the three of us) exhausted and blogging at 12:41am, half watching some random Late Night Show. Typically, I can shut my thoughts off at night and fall asleep (a discipline I learned during high school), but now I seem to have zero control over them while being pregnant. Is that a cop out…I mean, can I really blame this on pregnancy?
I’ve had other cognitive problems since being pregnant. For example, the simplest words will escape my mind at least three times a day (minimum), I am easily distracted from minor tasks, and I can seamlessly start a sentence with one topic and end it with another. However, my absolute favorite is when I try to get into cars in parking lots that are not my own. Most of the time they look absolutely nothing like the car I brought to the location. It’s happened a few times now, and takes me a good 30 seconds to figure out “ OH, that’s not my car…”.
What can I do about this maze in my brain. I have a feeling that I’ll just have to wait it out and hope my brain function returns with my body function after birth. Typically I have a complete roadmap for each day, week and sometimes month. Detours are no problem and in fact welcomed if more efficient. But now, I feel like a mouse in a maze for the first time, constantly hitting a dead end, retracing their steps, trying another route and then finally getting to the exit where the cheese is (that is if I can even remember that I am looking for the cheese). It’s very bizarre.
Anyway, I’m over exaggerating a bit, but understand, I’m used to efficiency and organization. Therefore, the smallest unnecessary blip causes great concern. I’ve learned to laugh at myself and move on, but deep down it bothers me a little. I realize that children demand that I relinquish some of this mindset, but I’d like to be able to do that by choice, not because of a brain malfunction. So, moms of America, is there hope for regaining mental strength? Will I be able to keep up with these little bundles? My money is on YES, I will overcome, but I’m interested in what you all think.
oh Kelci! i know just what you mean, and sadly when i was told when I was pregnant it doesn't go away after you have the baby-i was thinking sure it will! ummmm not quite the case!!! they call it pregnancy brain...I hope you enjoy your pregnancy :) Sometimes I found it fun to say, well, I am pregnant so I can get away with it... :)
ReplyDeleteNot going to lie...I had to LOL when I read your comment about getting your brain back after pregancy. Steph is right......say by-by to those quick thinking days, those witty comments, calling your husband by HIS name, knowing where you left your keys, or even your car, or what's worse is your child. And THEN, I found out it gets worse with each child. So, I am afraid for you...will your brain act as if you have one child or will it skip that and go right to two? Because I have NEVER been THIS bad and Addie is going to be 1 next week! :):):):):):):):):):):)
ReplyDeleteBUT, as I am sure you are know, it is WAY worth it! Just forewarn your husband that he might never get back the same woman he married! Although, you will be even more beautiful to him because you care and love for his children every day! Brain or no brain! :)
Thanks guys...guess I'll have to start preparing myself :-)
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