Pregnancy

So, I’m joining the Blog world a little late, but I’m glad to be a part of it now. I have recently become pregnant with twins (15 weeks along) and suddenly have a variety of thoughts to blog.

For some of you who will read this, you will know me personally, and I just want to apologize in advance for the candor I will be using. This pregnancy thing has not been a bed of roses for me, and where I realize that some women love being pregnant, that has not been the case for me so far.

I will say this once and only once for those of you who are judging me already, I am THRILLED to be having twins. The symptoms and side affects that must be endured to have them I absolutely hate. I hope that is clear. I will be blogging about my pregnancy, NOT my children. I can’t wait to meet them.

Well, these past 15 weeks have been quite a ride… like a roller coaster ride that doesn’t end. I should look at the bright side and realize that I have it pretty good compared to some women who go through absolutely horrific things in pregnancy. But instead, I choose to admire and commend those women and still feel sorry for myself.

The first three months it seems like I have spent mostly on the couch or in bed. Aliens have taken over my body and I have NO control over how I feel emotionally, physically, or psychologically. I’ve had cravings that have ranged from 3 soft shell tacos from Taco Bell for three days straight, all the way to one night when my dinner consisted of a personal pan pizza and cheese sticks from Pizza Hut topped off with 2 glazed donuts from Dunkin Donuts. (GROSS)

Now I know what some of you are thinking…”don’t forget, you’re not really eating for two” or another one of my favorites “ just because you think you’re craving something, doesn’t mean that the baby needs it”. My answer to that is, “you’re right, I’m not eating for two, I’m having twins so I guess that means I’m eating for three”. Also,” if that is how you feel, you probably want to find another blog to read”.

Don’t get me wrong. I understand that anyone could easily use pregnancy as an excuse to eat whatever they want whether they should or not and then blame the extra 30 pounds they gain on their “baby weight” for the rest of their lives, but WHO CARES! They had a baby!!! I have never had more of an appreciation for what women go through to get these cute and cuddly little beings. Why is it that the weight matters? Health reasons I can understand, but no one has to look at my fat. It’s not their fat, it’s mine and if I want to gain it, I will. If I want to loose it I will. If that’s not ok with you, you definitely want to read another blog, and maybe get some counseling in body image issues.

ANYWAY, today was the first day that I experienced a normal level of energy. Up until now, my days have consisted of holding back vomit, living in a daze of exhaustion, dizziness, headaches and restless nights. As today progressed my energy level has consistently increased. I’m writing this blog entry now having already attempted going to bed. I haven’t had a problem going to sleep on demand in months. Maybe the cloud has lifted…uh, well and the heartburn has started. It would be wonderful to have my energy back. I have so much to get done!

I realize this blog entry is out of control long, and I appreciate you all enduring it. I look forward to many more entries. I fully intend to post frequently, especially when I’m right in the middle of a mood swing (like I was tonight). I would appreciate any responses to this blog from those of you who can relate in anyway or just think it’s amusing. I have no time for those of you who would like to tell me how wrong I am and that I need to change my perspective…I’m going through enough changes right now, I can’t predict my perspective from hour to hour. And please, no vulgar or inappropriate responses. This is a PG/PG 13 blog. I want honest responses and the occasional helpful hint wouldn’t hurt every now and then either. Have a great night …TTYL